Landmark Day! Today is Day 14 of 56, which means I am officially halfway to halfway. I’ve been very particular about keeping track of the days up here. It’s incredibly easy to let all the days merge into one and let it all slip into a blur of day after day. Sometimes that’s a good thing. And sometimes, that’s a (borderline) discouraging thing. Routine is good for me, but when it’s a lot of work (and the same work) that you face every day, 168 meals and 300 bathroom cleans can be a bit overwhelming.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not counting down out of misery, hate or desperation. I’m not bitter about bedsheets (yet) and I haven’t gone crazy (yet), quietly stealing solitary moments in the rootcellar to gather my wits before facing the kitchen each day, or giving each shower a name and personality and holding conversations with them as I clean. Life here is not too shabby. There are lots of good things about it! I just don’t feel like blogging about them right now.
Oh I lied: I DO feel like blogging about one – Halfway to Halfway!
The trick to celebrating here is to not think much about it. Think small. Focus in on the tiny things in front of you. Don’t think about what you’re counting down to (going home, seeing people I know and love, walking my own dog and lounging in a real house) but simply celebrate the fact that we’re here. Fourteen days down! Fourteen days I don’t have to do over, they’re already done and gone, and the rest will soon be too. I’ll look back and say “That wasn’t too bad, actually!”.
The other key part is to stay focused and think big. And by big, I mean really big. Bigger than the mountains (which are huge by the way), bigger than my summer, bigger than my thoughts and attitude. I mean God. I really like to live life looking out from my little window called perspective, where it’s all about me, naturally! But that doesn’t work, and I’m reminded of it time and time again. I’ve got to look at God first, and get my priorities straight. I have to say “Ok God, here’s my day. It’s yours. You made it, you made me, I guess I’ll do my best to live it for you.” And even though I forget pretty much instantly, and I there’s no way I am anywhere near perfection, he is! Which is pretty cool.
Now I’m really getting off topic.
What I really wanted to share were a coupla quotes that have been running through my head lately. Yeah, from that big ol’ book of smaller books, La Biblio.
“The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honour”.* Yep. Humility before honour. Doesn’t matter how swell I think I am, I have to be humble. I’m continally being humbled here. My days get a bit better when I remember this verse and am reminded that humility is not a bad thing.
“When I called, you answered me. You made me bold and stouthearted”.** I absolutely love two things in particular about this. First: It’s in the past tense. It doesn’t matter that I didn’t write this, it is true. I have called, and he has answered. Pretty simple. Trustworthy, with personal evidence. Second, I love the word “stouthearted”. That’s exactly how I feel God has helped me lately. I’m not very good at explaining it, but the things that I don’t need to dwell on, the things that might have stuck into me and wounded a bit…well, I’m learning to shed them. Shrug it off. Buck up. Be Bold and Stouthearted. And that’s not something I can do on my own.
So that’s where I’m at. Halfway to halfway. ..not quite there yet, but finding some routine and always making progress.
How about all of you? Tell me about your summers! What you’re learning or not, what you’re doing or wishing you were doing. Leave a comment, send me a facebook, send a postcard, whatever. I love hearing from you, no matter how short the message or what form it takes : )
*Proverbs 15:33 **Psalms 138:3